plans.

sem 2's results are out.
i had 3Bs, 1 B+, 1 C+ and a DIST(gems), which totals up to a GPA of 3.13.
nothing fantastic, nothing out of expectations either.

one more semester to go, and im done with my diploma.
time really flies.
it's need to really plan for my future.


i went down to SIM's open house with Kent and Chengwai on the 13th.
the guys accompanied me for the IMI(tourism) talk and Kent and I were drooling over the prospect of studying in Switzerland.
(alright, i was!)
then we sat in for the uniSIM business talk, which we all agreed was a presentation well delivered.


there were two things that he highlighted in his presentation that made a lasting impression on me.
he said that life is not about time management, but rather, an act of balancing.
time, no matter how well managed, will always be a fixed commodity.
and sometimes you'd just have to learn to prioritise or even let go of certain things in life in order to keep your balance on that rope.
i couldn't agree more.

he then went on to talk about 'the big plan', questioning what we really want in life.



im simple.
i want to enjoy life; not necessarily the high flyer kind, but rather, being able to do the things that i like.
but throw in money and even the simpliest things become complicated.


there's so many things going on in my head now that i feel so swamped.
for once, im the one with reservations when everyone tells me to fight for what i enjoy doing more.

i willfully inisisted on my way three years back and now, i owe my mom an answer for my actions.
im really grateful to her for letting me go, though she didnt really have much of a choice, and i know i broke her heart back then.
i just know that this time round, i cant be as wilful as ive always been.
im a big girl now, i cant always insist on my ways and make my loved ones unhappy and worried.
i dont wanna break her further.
i guess she has enough on her hands already.



sigh.
i dont feel like talking about this anymore.