sighs and more sighs, blues and more blues.
i'm almost pulling my hair out over money and personal issues now.
so when i was out in town today, i decided to turn to retail therapy to cheer myself up.
everything just looked so tempting- the black diamond studded puma belt, the wallets, the bag, the tops, the ear rings etc.
the best thing is.. i had the money to lay my hands on them!
but when i realised i had to choose between cheering myself up, having money to eat proper ($3) meals for the next two weeks and immobilising my savings meant for next sem's school fees to spend on unnessary stuffs, i slumped.


i've changed so much over this 1.5 years. so much.

on top of that, the fact that i've actually lost my wallet just makes me feel more screwed up blue-er.
luckily heaven knows i have the habit of returning whatever wallet i found cos a cleaner actually picked up my wallet at sp and returned it to the office.


i love the greens.
i love the feeling of breaking through the seemingly impossible to break through defence.
it felt totally good to touch down. :)
the moment i scored, i feel so.. "I DID IT!! I DID IT!!I ACTUALLY DID IT!"
evaluation, confidence, hard work, determination.
touch rugby, i like. :)
but i still miss playing hockey so so much.



i feel lost without my emotional pillar.
a balanced life sure aint easy.



with my current schedule, blogging is starting to feel alien to me.
i used to outline the stuffs that happened during my absence from my dear bloggie.

eg.
thurs i had dinner with jireh and his friend, melvin after touch rug at fish&co. (elaborate )
fri i went to kbox after work at pp with hip, nic and shups. ( elaborate )
sat i met up with bernard and suan hwee to shop and talk. ( elaborate )


i guess this style of updating wouldn't be seen here for some time to come cos i'm just too busy juggling the three things that i enjoy ( school, touch rug and work )at the moment.








dear, it's only the first day and.. i'm pulling my hair out soon.
i want you. :(