i know i am going to regret not turning in at this hour when my "gimme gimme more" alarm rings 5 hours later.
as much as i want to sleep, my emotions wouldn't settle.
hell broke loose, again.
even when the girlfriend listens patiently to me, comforted me and provided me with advices, and when the boyfriend wipes away my tears and hugs me, there's nothing real nor solid to heal my wounds.
it only cuts deeper each time.
don't get me wrong though, i really appreciate you guys who are always tirelessly there for me when shit happens.
in fact, i dont know how i'll pull through without all of you.
i have no idea what i will turn into if this continues any longer.
or, to accurately put, i have no idea how much more time i have before i really really snap and/or turn into someone i don't want, but is forced to be.
only hope now is to pass my impending M5 and upcoming M9, let Elvin know of my targets and work hand in hand with him to help myself get out of these.
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