thank you dearest friend. (:

it's 3am again.
i wanted to turn in slightly earlier today as ive work tomorrow, but a conversation with a dear friend kept me up.


as ive said, there are certain things which are difficult to reveal on a public platform.
but yet it haunts me.
ive been shouldering this secret and keeping mum about it cos im aware of the consequences should i let the cat out of the bag.
though it has tided over, but it still gets to me till this day.



dearest friend,
i know you do read this space sometimes.
i did not have the chance to let you know how comforted i am and how much i appreciate you being there and being my protector, standing up for me and all.


"u better tell me this not cos its a secret, cos i care".
"promise me it wont get anywhere, to anyone's ears".
"wont get anywhere else other than xxx ass if it happens again".


it may just be two sentences, but it was those two lines that led to one of the sweetest heart-to-heart conversations that i had with a guy.
(next to the series of heart-to-heart with a fellow scorpio).


no, i was not victimised of any sort, if it sounded like i was.
it's just a complicated situation altogether.
im really grateful for you, and it warms my heart just to know that there is always you i can turn to. (:



im sorry if this entry is not reader friendly.
ive my reasons for making it so.
please do understand.
im fine, really. (:
and i need to turn in n.o.w cos im on lunch shift tomorrow!
goodnight world! (: