a reason to stay. (:

i think im a monster.
i was complaining to my colleagues about how bloated i was from dinner, and now im hungry again!
gosh! i seriously need to stop eating so much.
im ballooning! :X


there's a 1001 things that i wanna blog about, for eg:
- yikai's birthday
- mom's birthday dinner
- future plans
- finaly year project closure
- last gems class party
- projectSSS closure + chilling out with charmaine and evi
- hockey photo updates
- work & lessons learnt (today)
- decision to finally get tat!:D
- "encounter" with xiao jing teng!!!

but the men's hockey match (pakistan vs south africa) is distracting me! :p
OMG! a pakistan player is injured and bleeding profusely from the corner of his eye. :'(


hot and/or cute guys aside, ive always loved watching guys play hockey as they are much more aggressive and faster than the women.
but what makes me glued to this match is the imperfections in both teams.
sometimes both team miss their passes, sometimes they make basic mistakes like not looking up before passing, etc, etc.
but what matters is their determination to make things work again and make the match count by fighting back for what they have lost.

which brings me to my personal mantra.
it was never about winning, though the desire to do so is what flames that fighting spirit and perseverance in a player.
however, what matters to me as a player, is to know that, despite the outcome, i had put in my very best in the game.


i was upset over the loss of our ITE match earlier on.
but a friend of mine, who also plays a team sport, told me this:
"it takes more than a player to affect the direction of a game. dont be too hard on yourself."
thank you. (:
p/s: get well soon! i want my yami yoghurt! :D


ive been eating a lot [again :( ] and running diligently these days.
cos when it comes to sports, i dont wanna look back and say, "i used to be fit and was able to run xx rounds."
so i was super duper thrilled when cherie dropped me a message forming a possible hockey women team with IA.


digressing a little, whenever i am asked about my plans after graduation, im stuck.
i really want to go overseas to further my studies but i know the chances are slim, due to money and parental consent.
which leaves me with two options: step into the society or further my studies in a local uni.

im sick and tired of the paper chase though i understand the importance of it in our society.
but i really dont want to spend another 4 years just to get that paper from the mainstream unis.
so, im back to square one: go overseas, get the exposure + paper within two years.
this thought had been nagging at me for about 6 months till cherie's sms came in.

i found a reason to stay. (:


i really hope it materialises.
i miss trainings and playing hockey.