reflections.

i wanted to blog badly to take my mind off things yesterday.
it's all building up.
i dunno where to start.




wentong,
i guess i've said what i wanna say to you on your tagboard already.
here's wishing you the best of luck. (:




sacrificies.
from the day i made up my mind, i already knew i was in for those.
a part that used to be so major in my life is now missing.
i no longer knew how it feels to have sweat trickling down my face anymore.
and now, i'm cutting down on another important role in my life for the route that i've choosen.
yes, i'm cutting down on SI.


since i've choosen this path myself, i'll take as much responsibility as i can for it.
no doubt SI's a job that i enjoy.
but what i need is a long term job ; one where i would be able to continue with when i'm in poly and not be too taxing.
and after speaking to some people and considering some details, i've decided to cut down to wednesday classes at clementi sports hall only.
and while i was back to SI recently, it just no longer feels the same to me.




went back to pj to get my 'ao' chinese results yesterday.
a2 with distinction in oral.
exactly the same as what i had for hcl.
no happiness, no joy, no nothing except for a tweeny little disappointment.
and that was when i woke up.

i've always thought chinese was my forte.
and so i hankered after an a1 like everyone did as i felt that i was eligible enough for it.
but a spilt second later after my tweeny disappointment set in, i woke up from my beautiful dream-there's no such thing as a free lunch in the world.
and another voice echoed in my head, girl, fruits only ripen after labour.

and so summing it up, i would say this whole 'ao' chinese episode was a lesson learnt with no price paid.








as 3rd march draws nearer,
i began to realise what i've been aching for.
chinese.