i want this so bad.

even when the arrow is not targetted at me, i hate it.
i hate how everything is so negative and done in a commando style.
it gets on my nerves when simple things can't be left as just simple things; such as respecting one's style of doing simple things like boiling water, doing laundry, etc.

i want to change how things are now.
i want it so bad.

ive heard of undertable ways of filling pockets, and climbing to success.
it sure is easy, but it sure is degrading as well.

i have my own hands, my own legs and brains to depend on.
might not be of bill gate's quality but i'm happy with them.


ive finally found a job that ive been looking for all these while; the right mix of motivation and the it's exactly the type of job that fits my personality.
im excited and im scared, because the response from the people around me hasn't been encouraging.


i just need a little support.