blues.

ive always loved talking to xinyi, cos somewhow we're so similiar and she can always relate to me. (:



breakfast and htht with xinyi today made me realized the reason why ive been hibernating from the rest of the world these days.



ever since early dec last year, ive not exactly been the best friend to some of my closest pal.
feb 2009- i graduated and had nothing to fall back on anymore + i dont know what i want to do in the future.

i decided a little rest, and also to spend more time with andre.
so i took on part time jobs in exchange for more flexible timings, and that also meant that my income took a backseat as well.
it'd have been easy peasy if my family was well-to-do, but unfortunately the situation was exactly the opposite.
my mom kept asking if i was getting a job soon, and even my dad opened his golden mouth to ask if i've found a job.
the single digits started becoming best friends with my posb savings acc even though i tried very hard to stop them.
no kid.


p/s: i suddenly fell in love with the zheng fu when my $$ jumped from $1 to ____ on 1st july.

all this i dunno what i want to do, no money (personal and familiy) and cannot find job issues were pressing me so hard that i was suffocating.
i was really mentally stressed out, though i didnt really show it and carried on jalan jalan-ing, enjoying life whenever possible.
i mean, what else is there for me to do?

but what i did not realise was i was slowly closing myself in and drifted from my closest friends.
to those whom ive not been there when you needed a listening ear, im truely sorry.

communication is always a two way process.
im sorry ive not been contributing my share.

right now im praying that my current job as a trainer is the turning point that i desperately need.