i dont know what else i am capable of doing except to make out blur-ed words and to blast music at this moment.





she said why did you come home to jinx this family.
perhaps you didn't know i already tried to stay out as long as i could and bury myself with as much work i could.



my ears hurt from the music.
but my heart hurts even more from your words.





i'll climb up and work my ass off again after the tears.