eeeks.
i look like a silly little girl with my new haircut now :(


argh.
it's been MORE THAN A MONTH since i last ran/exercised. :(
i miss running :(
if music heals my soul,
then sports makes me complete.
i'm glad i was given the chance to take up [pj]hockey :)


i miss 2oo5.
my hectic, fulfilled and happening 2005.


cny's coming very soon.
which means i have to take the jab, get black COMFORTABLE shoes, black socks and make up before cny starts.
but money? =(
and i've yet to complete my cny shopping list.
shoes. shoes. shoes.


and i need to give serious thoughts to my future path soon.
i hate to think through major decisions.
it just kills me.
sa/pj dilemma, j2/poly route , tourism and resort management/media and comm.
and this time i'm caught between future prospects and interests.
i'm worried about the furture seriously.
i want and is still very determined to get into uni.
but at the same time, i really wanna pursue what i like. ( and i do like both of them. )
let's just hope and pray that my ultimate choice would allow me to have the best of both worlds yea?

there's just so much questions within me..questions that are directed at myself.
doubts as you call it.
sometimes when i get frustrated with thinking abt all these, i really wanted to adopt the think simple, aiya-dont-care-la, as-long-as-i-am-doing-what-i-like-can-liao-right? attitude.
but no. i cant.
i made this decision to go to a poly.
thus, i'd have to be responsible for my own actions.
life.. is tough.
but i am a fighter, only for what i want. (:



it's time to sit down and look into what i really want + what would offer me the best combination of interest and future prospects soon.
yea.
i'm a realistic person.
but this, sadly, is a realistic world.
i cant just defend my interests alone.
it's too.. selfish and un-realistic. :(




and i hope best friend doesnt give me trouble tml.
no no.
i'm not talking bout chensimin.
girl,
i love you and will always be there for you alright? :)
you know it, i know it :)







time management.
commitments.
the balancing point.
scary thoughts.
please do not let history repeat itself.
i need to master the art of time management.
i need to.







boy, i miss you.
and i cant get to sleep at night. :(