ive been talkin to ppl these days.
perhaps some may not agree to my 'screwing' of my res.
deep down,
i do not wish to either.
sigh.

i msged my cousin ytd.
she's a yr older than me.
and from the same sch as i am too.
pjc that is.

i asked her,
" i rmb u wanting to go to poly early this yr. why?"
her reply was,
" it's too stressful and there's a lot of uncertainty in it. u wont know how u will fare at the end."
that, is one of the reasons why i've decided to take the poly path too.
but for me,
it's more of wanting to do what i like rather than the stress.
it's true that the jc sys is stressed.
but, the poly sys has its own set of challenges too.
esp when i will have to work to support myself.
but,
i still went ahead with my decision cos i really want to do what i like.
and i dont want to be put into a course which i dont like at the end of the day even if i made it into the uni.
cos i want to enter mass comm.
and the harsh reality is what making me think twice about continuing the jc path.

then i ask her again,
"why din u go ahead with it? "
cos she stayed on in pj ultimately.
her reply was,
" i did. quarelled with my mom over it, but i was already in j2 and my mom din allow. so i kinda had no choice."

now,
if u dont mind spending another min of ur time on reading this blog entry of mine,
i would like to talk bout certain things here.
my aunt ( my cousin's mom ) is a soft lady who dotes a lot on her daughters,
and is almost always willing to let them have their ways too.
my mom,
in contrast,
is someone who DOESNT believe in accomodating our choices.
she's someone who wants us to do things her way.
and errr,
i believe most of my friends also know that my mom is anything but soft yea? =x

i dont blame my mom for not allowing me to go to a polytechnic.
and in fact,
i do understand her reasons for doing so.
but,
i guess ultimately,
the person who knows what's the most suitable path to thread on with that pair of shoes is me.
and i guess she prob wont and never will be able to step inside my shoes to fully understand the path that i am walking.

in short,
that's why i'm screwing my res.
and it doesnt make me feel good too.
i want to do things the proper way too.



choices.
decisions.
life.
and.. prices


i dont know what made me want to blog down this entry.
i guess it's all the emotions within me i guess.
all the complicating surge within.
*shrug.


been going back to trg these days.
killer warm ups/drills/mini matches/friendly matches/ dinner + gossip sessions.

we had a friendly with jj ytd at ntu.
i was the center forward.
but i'm kinda buffered why i was put as the center forward though.
cos i felt that someone else deserved that position more.
it wasnt v well played.
but i can safely said that ive improved from the start of the yr.
like duh. =x
and we won in the end.
2-0.

not sure bout the guys' score though.
there was this CURVY guy who played for the jj guys against our guys.
and jiaquan got pretty disturbed by him and was like " can u stop doing this?"
cos he kept using his butt to touch his hand.
WAHAHAHAHAHA.
now u noe why i said he's curvy?
and i bet my last dollar that he could win some women's sashaying competition.
yea.
i said HE and WOMEN'S.
so that pretty much explains why jiaquan felt disturbed too yea?
but i must say that guy's really good.
powerful and firm shots.
and we later found out that he's a national player and he's not from jj.
or at least not in the current batch. o.0"


then we had a game with our own pj guys.
and i really CANNOT STAND that golden monkey.
WAHAHAHA.
that's atika's nickname for him.
REALLY CANNOT STAND that guy man.
disgusted.
but someone, on the other hand, is nice and gentlemanly.
hehs.
nah,
my zihao is still the best.
i had to say this u see =p
LOL.
kidding kidding =p


hmm. did i mention prices just now?
yea.
much as i wouldnt want to acknowledge this,
but hockey is my price to pay for giving up my place in a jc and opting for a poly.
and a much unwillingly price which i would want to pay too.
but,
i have not much of a choice do i?
for it has to be paid.
:(


simin came up to my hse just now.
chatted and her eyes SHONE when she realised i had subscribed to scv.
heh.
i guess i'll be seeing her more often? =p
then she headed home while i went out with mommie dearest to ntuc.
all the chocos are making me DROOL.
and all the nice/cute packaging too.
just cheers me up to see them :D
then mom was like " do u want this? do u want this? "
she wanted to get $25 worth of stuffs to get the bonus point u see. :D
then i'm like " no/ yes. i wan this, this, this. "

HEHS.
now my frigde looks a teeny weeny lil bit more appealing *grins*
and i realised i dont need to know what are the sales FOOD item in ntuc by making a trip there.
cos` i just have to open my fridge.
WAHAHAHAHA.
what?
i'm NOT saying being thrifty is NOT a virtue.
WAHAHAHAHA =PPppP

dear's gonna start working soon.
jia you :D

tata.
i'm done blogging.
i noe i noe,
finally right? =p

oh wait.
how could i forget.
been reading first and i-weekly.
and paying extra special attn to perhaps love.
it's rated as the movie of the year and is acknowledged as the chinese version of moulin rouge.
and it's the first chinese musical in 35 yrs.

and the best part is.. *drum rolls*
takeshi's starring!!!
*dreamy eyes.
and jacky cheung's in it too.
his vocals have always been one of my faves.
and takeshi has always been my all time fave.
*grins/smiles/giggles all at once. :D :D :D
I WANT TO WATCH TAKESHI PERHAPS LOVE!!!