firstly,
tong, i guess i'll have to do the thing later.
not in the right mood to do it now.
stay tunned for my five random facts about myself :D


i dunno when i started feeling this way,
but i guess i really do love pjc..in a way which i dont know how to describe.
i'm not those kind of enthu girl forever hopping arnd the school cheering for whatever competition they have, taking part in everything they've held etc.
or simply in other words, i dont love my school the way like most ppl do.

if someone were to go arnd asking "why do u like ur sch?"
their answers would normally fall into :
a)because of the close friends they have inside there.
b)because they like their school's culture.
c)because of their cca
d)others ( bf/gf? =p )

for me, i have to admit, i dont have really really really close friends inside pjc.
neither do i like the culture inside.
nor do i have a boyfriend that is in the same school as me.
yes, i do feel attached to hockey.
but yet, it's not cos i am in love with it.
it's cos i've fought for it.
but again, i do love hockey.. in a different way, just like the way i love pjc.

perhaps it's cos pjc defined me all over again.
the experiences and opportunities it has offered me so far has shaped me and made me grown up.
it's seen me through my ups and downs and has created many many valuable lessons for me.
and most importantly, esp after tpoday, i realised i really do have many ppl who care bout me.
and these ppl are not just normal ppl, they are the teachers and the principals.


my mom went to see the principal regarding my retained status and my decision to go chinese studies in ngee ann today.

they had a long talk, i requested to see mrs ng and the vp himself came in after he finished talking to another parent to talk to my mother.
all of them, tried their very best to talk to my mom for me, spoke up for me, analysed my situation for my mom ,to let her know and asked for her to believe in me, to have faith in me. .and to respect my decision.
at the end, i whispered thank you to mr tay..something which i'm very used to when i'm talking to my dear boy whenever i feel touched.
yes, i am. really touched by their efforts, their care and everything else.
and though the principal just came and she couldnt converse well in chinese, she asked mrs ng to tell my mom " to have faith and believe in her daughter."
those were the principal's exact words.
i was really touched.

and there was sth which i noticed bout mrs ng too.
though she wanted to stand up for me when my mom was saying negative things bout me ( cos like me, she knew my mom had some misconceptions abt myself ) , she allowed my mom to say her piece first. then when she finally stopped, would she ( mrs ng ) speak up for me.
that's really sth i have to learn from.
i've always been too quick tempered. :(

and the vp himself surprised me with his chinese.
he's really good with chinese.
and when i've heard from himself that he was actualli a chinese student, i was shocked.
cos he normally speaks good english to us.
yes i was shocked, and then i smiled.
it was the type of i've-found-hope-and-we're-on-the-same-boat kind of happy and xin wei smile.

and there were times when i couldnt control my tears too.





i know this entry is kinda messy and i apologise for this.
but my mind's really not in the correct mode to function properly at this moment.
just like this entry, it's v jumbbled up, with all the emotions within.
but what sets my heart at ease and swelling with emotions at the same time is that.. good teachers do exist in pjc.
and maybe that's why i love pjc, in additon to the opportunities that it has provided and shaped me.

and to people who are worried bout me, i'm fine.
things are getting better.
i've gotten myself the help that i needed.
really thanks to kexin and zihao. :)
and sorry i've gotten the two of you all worried that day with that phone call.
and i hope that junhong would be able to find the road which he wanna threads on too :)


woo.
i'm hungry :(