i realise i alwAys blog in the middle of the night..
hopefully i wont be late tml =X

anyways.
results are out.
CCFF.
feel quite contended with it..
though my class peeps are like getting better results than me.
but eventualli it's me myself and i that i am competing against.
it still boils down to meeting my own expectations anyway =D
realistic ones i mean.


// random random
dad's performance in sch turned out well.
falling in love with lit more and more.
was at simin's hse the other day and we chatted.
realised that both of us work well under pressure.
now that's interesting.
i've always thought that i am someone who will give way under stress and competiton.
perhaps it's cos i feel inferior to others.
i feel so small as compared to all those smart ppl out there.
yes.
i still do.
i cant stand it when all the never ending tests keep hounding me.
BUT.
i really do maximise myself more when i realise that i have no time on hand to slack.
i begin to turn into someone more organised,
someone who plans and carries out her plans,
someone who is more/relatively disciplined with herself,
cos she HAS TO.

been really tired nowadays.
as if someone has dopped my drink or sth,
i ALWAYS feel sleepy.
hmmm.
kind of miss working..
shall have to wait for two more months to start work again.

sigh.
somehow i feel sad for my dad.
it's time for reflection.