well.
firstly.
thanks to all those who showed concern in one way or another.
but,
my problems arent what a listening ear can solve.
i'm tired.
really am.

i need a break.
i want my life.
sob.

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anws.
zihao,
thanks (:
if u had not beed there to talk to me.
i'd have been freaking scared.
getting lost in the middle of the night is scary. =x
went to queensway w/ atika after trg at delta yesterday.
and oh.
i scored a goal for our team.
heh heh :D
but.
it was cos no one was guarding me,
there was no goalie.
and the guy was a good midfielder.
i've lost count of how many crucial balls i've missed alr. :(
was chattin with atika.
and she posted me a interesting question.
how's ur love life?
lols.
she was so pissed off when i mentioned sth about someone.
LOLS.
heh heh heh.
dropped by SI after that.
asked kw to get some stuff for me for my bro's skates.
chatted with them in btwn.
and had a esp interesting conversation with joe.

joe: so how? got bf alr?
me: no.
joe: i intro someone to you want not?
me: [immediate] NO.
joe: why not? fang xin la.wo bu shi jie shao wo zi ji [dun worry la. i'm not introducing myself.]
me: na wo zhen de fan xin le [then i REALLY AM NOT WORRIED.]
ppl in the shop [ kw/michelle + jeryl+a few others+ me ] : ALL BURST OUT LAFFING.

there was this statement which i totally agreeded with michelle too.
she was saying she likes to work with SI cos everyday she meets new ppl and faces different working conditions.
she likes the fact that she's not surrounded by four walls and doing the same things each day.
that's one of the reason why i like to work with SI too. (:
was sitting beside kw when he was pleading some others to come down to work.
lols.
damn funny.
i wld say ken is better at making ppl come down.
cos ken is like FORCING ppl to.

hmmms.
certain gestures really touched my heart nowadays.
once again.
thanks (:

boo.
i forgot to mention that i met sh on fri.
was like totally quiet in sch on fri.
not talking much.
hiding and avoiding.
told her stuffs that had been accumulating inside me.
tears were welling.
yes.
it's painful :(

i love her.
the simple her.
the "really there to listen to you and feel and care for you" her.
i feel so surrounded by weather friends nowadays.
ppl who i can truly talk to are all so far from me.
even when sincere ones are there to listen.
they cant relate.

and i am happy for her.
for finding what she wants.
for daring to pursue her dream.
even if it fails.
she asked me to follow my heart.
but..
i'm really not sure.
for one thing,
i lack her courage.
sighs.
hmm.
we took neoprints!!
wooo.
it's pretty.
of cos la.
designed by our future designer k. :D
i noe it sounds mushy.
but u'll always be one of the reasons why i smile.
even staring at our prints brings a smile across my face.
love love love you.
and u'll always occupy a special place in my heart :D
love love love you.