went back to sajc ytd for orientation finale.gosh.i really really love the saints spirit.the peeps there were simply so high!the band plays all the english pop songs,we jump,we dance,we shout,we sing,we form human chains and tru tru train and run arnd the whole hall.we put our arms on each others' shoulders and jump and sing and you-name-it.nvm if u dunno each other,never mind if u're of opp sex,just put your hands on each others' shoulders and JUMＰ to the music!~
i went back to SA alone.sneaked in and stood alone at the back of the hall.felt so lost and loney,but yet happy to see bernard on the stage at the same time.it's like i can feel orientation 01 again.then later i sat at the back of the hall and dumped my bag somewhere.then jasmine found me :) then i sat with her then her friend pulled her away and i was left alone.then someone tapped me and i saw zhengxian!!awww.. i miss him =( yups.i saw trevor and ben tay in the green pants of tjc.lol.i miss treovr too.=(
then danced and shouted and jumped and human chained and tru tru train with zhengxian,xinrui,yayun.xin yao they all.it RAWKS loh.then somehow i got separted from zx and someone just put his hands on my shouldes and contd the tru tru train.when i turned arnd i saw jonathan!he's damn cute k.ooops =x but he's a bloody flirt.shooo~lol.
wah the j1s of this batch damn rebellious..someone break danced and the council forbidded him then the j1s all sat down on the floor to protest.then somemore lead sa school song and sa cheer w/o the councilors.damn rebellious loh =x lol but i like =x oooops. then when the band stopped playing everyone chnated.we want more we want more.it's WOW loh.
then towards the end of the finale i cldnt help it anymore.i cried.sob.i miss sa peeps so much.i miss the food.i miss the saints spirit.i miss my bleoved cca`sports club.i miss seeing all the familiar faces and saying hi and smiling to them.i miss my friends i miss i miss i miss.. ='( -sigh-
it was really a painful decision to turn down the appeal.if i din,i wld be a saint now.but for the sake of myself,of my studies,i have to.sucha big sacrifie.=( yet she doesnt noe it.she doesnt noe what i'm going thru at all.and she's reprimanding me for turning down sa.it's terible.terible terible.-tears-
i'm already feeling sad and lonely enuff going home from pj alone everyday.my friends..they are all at sa.i mean yah i do have friends at pj and i do like pj.i laff i talk i feel happy but when night falls..the feeling's back again,the loneliness is hunting me.i dun want to think.but if you are me,everyday have to travel home alone u cant help it too.i still miss sa.
went for touch rug trials at pj today.six rounds+captain's ball+100m x2 sprint+a lil game.and i had pe in the morn too.three rounds+80 jumping jacks+60crunches+30 dips+40 pumpings.i nearly fainted after i ran six rounds arnd the track for touch rug trials.so i was like damn gong when playing captain's ball.i dun think i'll get into touch rug but i'm really proud of myself.i hang on right till the end.there were many times during the trial where i wanted to give up.but no,i told myself i hafta complete it!and yups qiushi i'm as proud of u as u are of urself.i still rmb u saying wear nan hua pe tee must not throw nan hua face.though the two of us came in the last for the six bloody rounds but still we hang on till the last.for that i'm proud of u and of myself =) i've never been doing so hiong sports before.nearly gave up.nearly.but i din!*cheers

[editted] when chicken dance and chori chori was played i was really at a loss of words.i miss sa mass dances so much!still rmb orientation one where we had to learn the mass dance,then i got a horrible partner for day one.lol.then during the finale i danced and jumped and sang and you-name-it with trevor,zx,bryan,meiyi.still rmb bryan swung me till i had to SCREAM at him and nearly fell on top of him when he stopped swinging me.those were the memories.
then when berd and andrew and zab pulled down the banner we did for orientation one i was so overwhelmed with emotions too.my fingerprint is down there loh,a tiny lil part of the word saints.sob.smiles.tears.memories.